overwhelmed..

i am in e midst of mass packing my room now... decided to blog b4 i continue as i am so overwhelmed by my emotions nw... was rummaging thru e bag of letters n cards frm as early as when i was in p3 till nw...finally.. i understd alot of things.. hw i was so super insecure n weird n how i became who i am now n y am i e way i am including my attitude n character n e way i handle my emotions...not forgetting my fears my weird thinkings of certain issues.. tho i don rem wad i haf written to e sender but as i read e letters its as tho e sleeping part of my memory was jolted awake.. being some one who choose to hide e memories tt i hate or am afraid to face, my memory is pretty bad concerning awful or awkward scenes... or simply stuff tt i hate to even think abt..therefore reading those letters is e same as forcing myself to face e past.. e phase which i hated.. nw i noe y i treasured the once 4-peas-in-a-pod so much in e past becos they gave me e comfort recognition n love tt i haf ever wanted.. n i noe when i am wif dem dey wun hurt me in fact protect me frm anything n everything n support me in all aspect....den i think of E. n i think of K. when i read e letters frm K. i feel like dying... frm both laughters amusement n awkwardness... n i realie regret throwing away alot of meaningful things jus becos i din think tt they will become such a big part of my memory in e past.. some parts of me hasnt change.. n i think i must find a way to get rid of them.. because dey will only bring me harm... sigh.. e past is both intriguing yet haunting... i realie want to recall all tt had happened yet a part of me is holding back as i am so scare of facing tt part of me... i dono if u understd wad i mean but i think sis u shud roughly noe..


Human.. we r weak.. we r often tempted.. even more when we noe wad we desire is forbidden..suddenly i tot of original sin... hais... y ren so fan jian.. y do we long for something when we ald noe e dire consequences.. its been so long n i've paid for it n i haf been warned by alot of incidents but y do i still think of e sinful indulgence which i should stay away...

haha

some pple r left speechless thus leaving some comments to save the very last few traces of its pride. . . tt's good news!

new week ahead... with so many plannings on my mind..
suddenly a bombshell drop onto me forcing me to alter my plans!
perhaps its for my own good..
dear is going for reservice pretty soon... tis whole of 2005 nv did i not meet him up at least 3x a week..time for me to be independant.. but thx god.. he'll be on time for christmas...haha
not everything in life will go e way we want but i guess... every obstacle we pass is to make us a better person.. after all tis yrs e lessons r being hurled at me in diff forms but i guess tis particular lesson is one tt i'd nv learn..

To The Pathetic Bitch

PART 2

Hey Bitch..
C'mon ..TRY ME :)
i'm waiting!!!!
Hahahahahahahahaha
yeah perhaps my fren r hinting at me but they din mention e wrd "shut up" as like wad u described in ur previous entry.. so (Don-try-to-distort-the-truthNo.1)
oh n don get sooo sensitive n always triggers ur so creative imagination tt often ya.. i din mention anything bout ur personal life.. :) so don try to STUFF e wrds i din even mention in my mouth..Since when in my blog did i even mention anything abt ur "Affairs of the heart in personal life" (Don-try-to-distort-the-truth No.2) i'm targeting at our conflict not ur personal life.. get tis clear.. don mention things tt i din sae jus to win pple's sympathy ya.. as for me reading ur entry... well if nt for my good hearted fren who is nice enuff to tell me abt it i wun even bother abt popping by ur boring website jus to read tt distorted entry.. maybe tt y u haf to write tt down in ur blog so as to induce more spice in ur life huh hahaha... n if ur english is realie tt limited to keep using wad i've written to describe me perhaps a dictionary.. no.. i think attending more english classes will help..
n who's the one who started e ball rolling... u r e one who bitched abt me 1st n now u haf e audacity to sae i'm "shallow" when u r e one? (Don-try-to-distort-the-truth No.3) go n do some soul searching instead of pointing ur fingers at others... cant be bothered wif any childish petty angry cowardly bitch anymore. if u haf nth to retort back den don try to distort the truth again... bye!

P.S u din stand up for ur fren (Don-try-to-distort-the-truth No.4) rem u were sitting dere like a coward n can only vent ur anger by producing poisonous malicious entries.. hahahahahaha ..n ur eng sux..if u want me to use a dictionary to read ur entry perhaps u hafta try much harder or like wad i suggest go n take up eng lessons :) n if ur maths is good can u managed to count hw many times haf u distorted the truth in ur entry... well lemme help u jus in case u r as bad in maths as u r in english.. its 4 times.. =)

Latest LOVE

Guess wads tt??
Its my epilator!!
haha lame rite.. but i simply love it no more mess no more headaches!
wad cud ever be better??
anyway i am back frm msia...
n christmas shopping has started
tis e season to share ur love wif ur love ones!!
so wad r u waiting for??

AND HERE IS TO ALL REGULAR CUSTOMERS OF CK TANGS!
PLsssssssssssssssssssssss i mean realie.. do me tis favour if u can!
i have a $70 tangs voucher(valid for 2yrs!!) tt u can redeem at any levels as long as its in the premises of tangs n inclusive of tangs studio... e reason y i have tis voucher is due to a mishap during a shopping trip..lets jus sae its a mis-use of my cash n impulsive buyings... derefore i refund the goods i bought ($155) n i managed to clear the $30 n $55 voucher but e remaining $70 is realie bothersome... so if u r a reg shopper over dere wud u pls consider buying the voucher frm me (well i kinda bought it too rite? lol)
thx alot!!! (u can leave a tag or email me at s-h-e-r-l-y-n@hotmail.com)

updates,,,,

haven update 4 so long cos wan my previous entry to be seen by her...haha i noe i v bo liao...thursday went to Carnivore for dinner wif dear at chijmes.. e food is fairly alrite 7/10 tho nt alot of varieties however e service is top notch! sat went to town.. bought the new guess perfume... yeah yeah so happy sia... i like e fragrance alot!! den tues went to ps wif dear again... walk ard n bought the peach n almond lotion body spray n shower gel... i simply love anything asscociated wif almond n peach... after which went to coffee bean at wheelock.. my caramel apple has been DISCONTINUED! shit man shitttttt was so pissed... grrr... wed went to visit my pri sch tr... e security guard look at me n liren majiam we r terrorist duh! e noodles at e canteen nt as nice as my pri sch daes haha... my its cheap la.. n my tr cant recognise me until we tell her my name... after tt went to liren hse to hang out... till ard 9 as it was raining... i realie like hanging out wif her cos i don hafta be on guard or feel uneasy cos she is e best fren of my life..
thurs.. celebrated mee li bdae at paradiz kbox... it was fun... can tell she is v happy.. caris n me gave her a top frm zara.. e whole nite me caris jelinda n tiffany was picking n choosing the tibbits frm e tiny bowl as we don like nuts..haha..
fri.. which is ytd.. went to urban pooch in e evening.. for pearl... its a cafe tt allows u to dine wif ur dogs n u can play wif their dogs dere... it wasnt as nice as wad me n dear tot however its a new experience for me... playing wif e dogs n all... n dere is dis realie huuuuuuggggeeeee dog dere but its v solemn haha... den e smallest dog dere is v adorable... if only its an outdoor area i believe it'll be better... todae.. dono going where most prob going out again... haha

lets tok abt a bitch who is a COWARD ahahaha

stumbled across a BITCH's blog... lifted her older entries...wooohooooo here we go...

TO: The Pathetic Bitch Who Is a Coward Inside But Trying So Hard To Act Strong n Tough in Her Blog . . . . . HAAAA

since u have sooooooooooo many negative comments bout me.. hw abt telling me rite in my face... don hafta gif lame excuses like.. giving pple face..dere fore u decided nt to "TELL ME OFF"... HAAAA... Hilarious.. i'd realie love to c hw u "tell me off" i mean who wouldnt wanna see a useless jittery chickenhearted "bitch" telling pple off in a cowardice manner (trying to act fierce but failling miserably) ? trust me it wud be realie amusing!!! hahaha .. Believe me even if we r alone u wun dare to even retort back..
So, u don like it when i was "bitching" bout u when u r beside huh... i din ask u to like it wad derefore u need nt feel oblige to like it :) ... n i noe u aint deaf of cos as i am nt as spastic as u.. cant u even see the obvious fact tt i deliberately wan u to hear wad i was saying? u r jus a useless timid coward who dare nt even squeak when i was "bitching" bout u rite beside u...n i don call tt bitching cos i doing it when u r ard (beside me tt is) and i aint afraid tt u will hear... in fact to noe tt u actuallie heard wad i sae gives me a thrill cos i felt so elated tt retards like u guys finally heard some truth bout urselves..
I guess pretending to be realie brave n acting like some spoilt-brat-princess in ur blog is the only time in ur life when u can appear as some one with backbones n some one who has her own mind.. Anyway i wasnt targeting at u but at ur dear fren...BUT ..since u like wad i am saying so much n since u love to take it as i am toking bout u... well go ahead... to me commenting abt air heads shud be heard by air heads n since u fufill the criteria, congrats! u r nw officially allowed to take acknowledgement in wad i had said tt dae..
In fact either u realie haf hearing prob (as u claimed tt is wad i tot) or u deliberately twisted the facts.. wad u wrote ain wad i said... either way.. u r equally pathetic..
AND lastly... unlike urs... my tongue only lashes at pple who deserves it... n it certainly does no harm to nice peeps.. so u need nt wry bout others.. however i must realie congrat u for having a chance to experience tt cos u r one of e few pple in my life who had e honoure n ability to make it so eager to snap at u.
Awww it upsets me tt brats like u actualie exists... trust me my heart realie goes out to you.. well its nv too late u noe.. u can actuallie try to be a better person in order to haf better karma to make up for being such a bitch in ur entire life.. cheers :)

P.S: my frens din ask me to shut up.. thanks for being concern but dey realie din :)

pissed!

i jus realised..
some one change her blog's pic n it wrote Vanity Fair..
if u tot of it on ur own i'm glad...
but if u lift it outta my blog's theme....
i think i haf lotsa to sae..
for some one who preaches bout originaity..
too bad.. it seems like YOU don haf it

friday..

when i woke up receive a call frm zhiming saying they r going for movies n ask me along... so i met him tong li weiming danny n william at PS to catch "Doom" its was alrite but reminded me of resident evil... b4 e movie me tong li n weiming went to pastamania to grab a bite dey ordered pasta n i ordered a choc mousse it was quite nice... after e movie tong li was luffing at me cos i was jerking all e way when dere r scary scenes.. well i cant help it i had my ears stuffed wif my finger practically 3/4 of e show haha... after e movie we went to tt small outdoor thingy beside orchard plaza for supper... it was nice .... took a few pics...damn lo if i nv lost my hp tt time i'll still haf a cam fone! :( sigh sigh.. den we went to play billard actualie is dey play i watch la cos i realie sux at tt... the whole time was chatting wif them when dey nt playing den after which we actualie wanted to go ktv de but.. it was ald 2+ den not muchplace plus nt worth it so we decided to leave it to todae after dinner at marina bay...hopefully tong li will be able to make it if his airline nv activate him!
for those who r wondering who dey r.. hmmm tong li weiming n zhiming mainly... r the 3 whom i was closer wif 3 n 4 yrs ago... dey r my ex sec sch seniors + my ex bf's ex good fren (s) they haf touch my life deeply.. tho we haven met up for ages but i'm so glad tt i din feel any distance... tong li used to be my counsellor sort of la... i used to be v childish u noe.. oways thinking bout sucide n stuff n he was always v patient wif me when i called him up like a hysterical char bor.. n he realie cares...when i hate studying at tt pt of time he always advise me to cling on nt liek some ass jus leave me alone n cry to my death.. he is my best buy fren ever... :) weiming is a tad too quite n preserve but there is no doubt tt he is realie a wonderful fren... he is kind generous gentle n definitely a hao hao xian shen.. haha... sometimes he is too nice tt pple take adv of him nor... he gives v good advices when i need dem.. n he is v wise n is a peace maker.. zhiming leh a v cute guy who is v jovial n active in sports... he nv fails to crack me up wif his so right but corny jokes... he is also a v nice guy in fact they r all so nice! hahaa... he is def a gentleman in making n he is v nice to his frens... its my honoure to noe e 3 of dem n having dem as my good frens is like one of e happiest thing tt has ever happen to me..
well nw is 3:50 .. 30 more min later tong li will be able to cfm his trip wif us later if he wasnt activated... i pray tt he wun.. cos going marina bay wif his is e best he is e only one who willl peel prawns wif me to eat.. hahahha... okie will update n def post pics in my nx entry! :P

updates

so damn lazy to blog!!! haha...alot of thing to update.. some i forget ler also haha...start frm last week ba on thurs after sch went to town wif jo n jason... but splited up wif jason den me n jo go buy nail polish... frm thurs till ytd i think i spend 100++ on nail polish ler!!!!!! jo is v gd at choosing the colors she noes exactly wad i wan ... so fun to hangout wif her!..after tt went to paragon to meet clarance n his fren cos a fren of his frm abroad came to spre den he ask me join them... went to eat at maxwell den back to cine kbox ...it was fun...sat was at hm pcking the stuff for the e bizzare on sun... wahhhhhhh frm 3pm to 4+ in the morning wif sis n her frens.. dey r pretty frenly n humourous... so time pass v quickly...everyone is damn shag!! sleep at 6 lyt n wake up at ard 8 wAh so tired lo but was excited abt the bizzare... it was quite hot n the crowd is pretty limited...but it was a whole new experience for me n i totally enjoy it.. n i am so glad to sae tt i only lost my cool once! hahaha... well tt ass auntie deserve it... wanna buy my escada bag at 5$ ask her to go n eat SHIT la... damn those ah sohs realie hate dem lo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyway dear did came dw n i appreciate tt but i din get much time to realie pei him cos e stall is pretty bz... so poor thing... jus sit dere at a corner n watch ... n sis back is in a pretty bad shape at e end of e dae...tt sure hurts lyk hell! i guess everyone cant wait to slp at e end of the bizzare haha..to sum it up i earn abt 130+ only sian was hopping to earn 500 lo.. but nvm la..hopefully dere will be another bizzare soon... den after tt went to dear hse n slp realie early as i din sleep much tt few daes was damn tired lo...mon went to fareast wif dear eat bbf.. haha as we reach dere prety late no place to shop ler... den tues went to bugis n again buy lotsa nail polish haha..i am such a crazy person when it comes to buying things.. bth..