Pearl n the new xmas tree!

for the past few daes pearl has been living wif me n my family n everyone is so attached to her... n even myself to another level. commitment n responsibility towards her is heavy but despite having to bring her down to do her business for at least twice a day(n the need to dispose her shit if not our guards will kill us), having to feed her by my hand n begging her to eat, putting up all e kicks n snore when she slp wif me at nite.... its worth it... no one can bring me e kinda joy like she can when embracing me n jumping ard me like a mad dog after a long day outside.. when licking every inch of my face n scruffing her way up my shoulders, when she follows me whenever i go.. the howling when i leave e hse..when i noe she misses me when i aint ard.. when she brush her head against my hand or wants to sit on my lap.. her excitement when i was abt to bring her out.. when she uses her paws to rub against her head....her hugs n kisses awwwwwwww EVERYTHING abt her is driving me nuts n tho i hafta wake up an hr n a half jus to settle her stuff but its worth it... it saddens me to face e fact tt she is returning soon... i cant bear tt thought n i noe.. none of my family cud.. she bond us together i don wan her to go... sigh but she aint my dog so wad to do...she makes my sis a happier braver n warmer person... my younger sis cheerful n giving her a better hols.. my father young again n seeing hw he plays wif pearl n love her... taking her for walks becos he wants to... my mum to enjoy the lil details of pearl n smile n care for her in her own ways ... therefore i'm comtemplating if i shud get my own dog but i noe its gonna be diff...
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anyway afterall tis yrs we finally bought a xmas tree.. n when i sae we i mean everyone contributed...hee... tho the decos r more exp den the 180cm tree but i aint feeling any pinch over it as its a dream... i love xmas....

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now i noe y giving is better than receiving (tho tt makes me broke)

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u realie shocked me n it kinda hurts...
i miss the old you..
i hate tis side of u
i realie do...
its jus one of the thing tt i cant stand.....
if oni u noe..........................

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please god... u noe hw much i dreaded tt... n u noe hw all i want is to be happy..
is tt realie too much??

Saturday nite

Went to chinablack on sat wif vivian n her bf n her bf's fren n kaya (her bdae) it was supposed to be fun as i have nt met her for so long BUT... as i haven recover frm my sickness (fever flu n soar throat!!) i was feeling so light headed out of a sudden n its been yrs since i last felt lyt... my body was breaking out in cold sweat n my lips turn white i cant stand or sit can only squat... pathetic huh.. sigh thus i went back to dear hse n after drinking a mug of coffee i'm fine n our conclusion is my body lack of sugar.. sigh i guess i scare dem quite badly n i haven even redeem my drinks... kinda waste $ huh haha but nvm la at least we met up n we r thinking of going to momo tis coming sat hopefully i'd haf fully recover by den... :P

At Chinablack