Shopping trip!!!!!

Went for a shopping trip todae.. haha.. bought some of e things tt i wanted.. but i din managed to get a bag cos i cant find any tt i realie like.. deciding btw e Zara n Mango de..or hopefully a new one will catch my eyes! Spore sale may be officially declared as on.. but sadly Mango aint having sale sian.. realie love Mango like nuts.. bought 3 tops n 3 bottoms frm dere den a lipgloss n lipstick frm Dior.. gonna buy the Anna Sui new perfume when dey change e "Spend $100 n get a free gift" item cos i don like e current one...went to Zara but din saw anything tt caught my eye.. am realie tired nw.. gonna catch Desperate Housewives later on n den tml gonna go make passport wif dear den think maybe he will meet his sis den i'll needa go taka for e audition thingy hopefully it will be good.. logging off nw..

i wonder

have i realie let go.. i realie wonder

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Hmm i realised i am blogging regulary at once a week n if u realised its all mon haha.. ok so i shall start frm last tues.. Dears' off dae.. so we went to town actualie plan to c movie de in e end cos we slowly slowly walk n shop in e end no time.. we headed to cine wantd to buy e tickets but don haf e show we wan so we went to eat 1st den saw my sec sch mates .. chatted wif dem den after me n dear eat finish we went to wlak ard den ah dear bought Ichigo n KON!! heeee so cute so we bring dem home lo ah dear noe i sure ki siao n sure i did cos i was trying shoes when he bought it den he damn gei siao haha.. nv buy e shoe cos not i like de plus jus bought one b4 chris flew away.. which is like a week ago. after we c like nth lyt we went to take pic at e lovegeti shop..den went to taka find michelle but she like v bz n we rushing to lido to try the movie tickets.. so we headed to to b2 after leaving her wrk place den gt sale haha so i bought a bag n a pair of v nice leather shoe hee v special cos e tip is pointed de haha... den e bag is like those pattern i like de so buy lo but ald 9+ so cant shop any more den s we go to wisma gio n saw a pants i like so buy lo actualie don wan de cos i jus spend near 200 bucks at zara last week when i go shop wif jia jing .. ald bought e pants n lotsa clothes ler but nvm la ah dear c i like so he buy for me + he noe i broke ler.. den rush to anna sui to buy my refill but oso close sian.. den lido oso don haf our show ler so we sian 1/2 go wheellock drink coffee den go home lo den wed i nv wrk so i ownself go town walk walk to buy my refill tis time i did den i bought a lipstick to replace my finishing shade n a liploss actualie wan buy my mascara oso but i think think ald 100 gt free gift ler wait till dey change e gift den i buy mascara den can give myself some excuse to buy more anna sui things esp e new perfume!! hee so i buy tis 3 den dey gimme badges (lame leh) n a v nice bag wif a v nice anna sui cover bag so total is 2 bag haha after tt i v sian i call andrew den i go lot 1 meet him den we ok n eat till 2 or3 den after tt i go meet ah dear lo den thurs me go taka meet my family n eat cuz mum bdae e dinner cost us 300 bucks but we nv eat happily cos e food sux all my dad fault lah don sae ler but nt nice at all! den after tt i head to meet jia jing den we actualie wan go dbl o de but i nt feeling well so in e end we go slack at back of hse den we went to dbl o c walow so long que ald 12+ so we sian ler we took cab go mr bean eat den spend e rest of time dere till our bf come den dey order food eat after tt we went home lo den fri wrk v unhappy dae dono la sat v sian n sun more sian all wrk wrk wrk sian sian sian den finally home ler but i not tired cannot slp i haven slp after i finish wrk frm ytd lo.. anyway my sis went thailand ler n promise me to get me my stuff hee n me n dear oso planning to go soon within june lo.. think i will end here type till sian ler.. nearly lose all e contents i type cos com hang but heng managed to save dem hee

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:( Chrislines' gone sigh... went to her hse to move quite a lot of things as she donwan dem anymore.. she's realie sweet.. she painted a pair of champagne glasses with me n dear's name n gave me an Anna Sui green eye gloss.. she realie noe me so well tt she noes i love green n i love anna sui.. everything she did for me.. jus touch me so much.. sigh.. sent her to the airport on Thurs.. her fren drove us dere.. but we met upon a car accident as e taxi was realie careless.. but we r all ok.. farwell was terrible..we cried like no tml... jus go on crying n crying.. chris cried too... den after she n emil enter e gates me n dear realie brk dw.... den we went to bk n eat cuz we had nt eaten anything...den after tt we went hm n its quite a bad dae cuaz me n dear jus keep crying till we sleep.. life goes on... but i feel empty nw tt she is gone all e mails i receive jus keep bringing tears to my eyes...sigh~! on sat i was molested! damn tt fucker.. i was on e way to e toilet while wrking den he who is a customer pulled me over n hug me den grab my breast i was so angry tt after going to the toilet i told my bouncer who went oer n confront him n even slap him but tt bastard refuse to admit so i scream at him n to make matter worse his gf is dere omg... n e gf is still siding him ass hole.. den he keep saying IF he did it he is sorry so i shouted dere is no IF u did it n u noe it n since u gt e guts to do it why u don dare to admit r u a guy anot n he finally admit n apologise but too late nth cud appease my anger nw so i made a police report which dey did arrive shortly den he was arrested while me n my manager head dw to tanglin police station after wrk... took us all e way till 7 am oh god it sure is tiring..everyone is realie nice n understanding n i am so touched... even my bosses comforted me.. n dey understand my feelking so no one gave me any sorta stress... so is like he will be sued n i need nt pay cuz i am e victim n e gov will pay for me :D shall end here n gonna reply to chrisline nw..

I feel so guilty... sigh

GREAT DAY!

Din sleep last nite.. left hse realie early to meet chris tis morning.. super duper tired like dono wad.. in fact v v v tired nw.. went to liat towers to settle her paper work.. den went to BK for lunch.. went to nokia care n screw dem so nw my fone is finally left dere to be repaired.. ater 2 mths of waiting! i got wnuff frm dem man one more shit i'll jus screw dem again.. aftyer which me n chris went to the lingerie shop opp nokia care..The Argent.. fucking expensive man.. but i simply cant resist it man.. so i bought one of it.. headed to lucky plaza to get her clother altered.. headed to tangs as chris said dere fitting room is superb..no joke man.. simply love their service dere! too bad i'm in a toght budget ctrl so i cant buy any more lingerie but dey realie haf beautiful ones!! me n chris jus love lingerie shopping haha..as i am sooooooo tempted.. i bought another one.. haha omg.. i am gonna be broke if i go on spending like tis man... chris bought me tis butterfly bracelet as a farewell gift frm tangs.. its realie beautiful..n its realie a surprise cos i tot she is buying for her another fren.. but after shopping for a little more while she handed me e box.. i was soo touched.. sigh.. cant bear to c her go man.. after which we headed to wisma n taka.. window shopped ard n chris bough some clothes n gifts .. i wanted to buy shoes but none caught my eye though..we shopped for pretty long den headed to taka for dinner frm tis omelette stall tt sell jap omelette rice.. den we indulge in e cream puffs.. n select cookies (brandy snaps n passion snaps) as mum's gift.. added a dark chocolate frm france into e box as well.. cos i noe she likes tt..shopped ard more.. den went to watson to get e wax n she bought hair dye.. den we went to taka departmental store n chris caught her eye on tis huge greenish mouse plushy.. n she wanted it badly.. she said it wud be great to hug it on e 13 hr flight..den i drag her to the toilet n left her dere while i ran back to e dep store n bought e mousy.. left it at e cashier n rushed back to the toilet for chris.. den i told her tt i wanted to sae bye to the mouse so we went back n she was so upset tt e mouse was "sold" den i told her tt i'll go ask e sales girl or something while rushing back to the cashier for e mouse... as i got back to her..she look pretty upset n was toking to another sales girl to c if dere r other places tt carry e stock.. as its e last one.. den i told chris to look for e customer who bought it n she look at me like i am nuts haha.. den she whines abt it so i say.. hey chris u realie like tt... she said of cos..so i pass her e carrier n say.. hmm i tot so.. for u :D she was so happy n touched n we luff n luff n e slaes girl luff nonstop too...we luff frm e store till we went outta taka n sat dere n we still luff n luff.. hahaha.. gonna miss her so much man.. sigh.. i am so glad tt she like e mouse so much.. headed to cine n she bought some more farewell gifts for other frens of hers.. den we pass by the lovegetti shop so i suggested taking pics.. whiuch we did.. n we had a great fun e process is realie funnie.. after tt headed to her hse to get e stuff she wants to leave behind in spore.. one huge pillow n two fluffy boster! after a chatting till 11+ headed to dear hse.. damn shag nw after a shower gonna flop n be a dead ass..

still feeling wonderful

seriously.. i dono.. its kind of a dillemma..
tml- going to liat towers to settle chris paper wrk wif her.. so i not planning to slp as i gotta meet her at 11.. n i wun be able to wake up if i sleep!.. anyway i oso gotta go nokia care to see if tt toopid buzzer thing had arrived.. it better had.. or else i'm gonna screw e pple dere as its been 2 mths.. i'm jus going to be a bitch!.. Oh... dear come home ler hehe.. don blog ler.. *gone*

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i felt depressed... funnie tt i shud be saying tt rite nw when i shud be happier as compared to the future me .. i felt tired.. of my job... i felt tired of my future... i felt unsure... i dono man.. when i caught a glimps of it i'm scare yet when i chose nt to c it i felt stress i lead my whole live in a contradictory world.. i am always contradicting wif myself regardless whether it is simple matter such as deciding where to go or wad to eat to imp matters such as continuing my education n stuff.. if dere is realie one thing abt my character tt i wud change.. i realie wish tt i am nv a fickleminded person.. i wud chose to be some one who noes exactly wad i want.. yet tis wud nv be.. cos i am me... i hate myself.. yet i love myself.. c tis is wad i mean contracidiction..... i wanna luff yet i wanna cry i felt troubled yet i felt contented.. suddenly i tot of my sis.. who loves to whine.. n nv afriad to whine... but me.. i chose nt to whine cos wads e point when after whining ur life goes on as usual.. nth changes... i am always saying "i wish i wish i wish" yet life is nv kind enuff to grant us a wish let alone a few wishes.. i felt tired.. i felt aged.. like i ald lead my whole life.. like i am ald reaching death.. yet i am young.. but nv in heart.. suddenly i tot of a phrase bilbo in LOTR said " like butter spread too thin on a bread" yeah tt is wad i feel rite nw... i feel like e air is too thin...i felt empty when it reach my lungs..there is so many things n issues n emotions tt i felt unsured of.. i feel suffocated... i felt exhausted... like when u r sinking yet there is no one to pull u outta water.. i realie dono hw to put my emotions to wrds.. tired is a realie general n superficial wrd tt i cud nt realie use nw.. perhaps its e circular cycle tt tends to keep repeating.. tears welled up in my heart.. yet it gt stuck.. n i hafta swallow it back dw again.. cos when u grw up u cant cry u cant display ur emotions like u did when u r a kid.. i miss being an ignorant kid .. who gets scolded when u make mistakes.. yet i get to learn .. not like nw when u make mistakes no one gives u a second chance to try again.. i wanna scream out a loud at tis moment yet again i hafta swallow it dw.. i miss being myself.. i miss ME .. i miss being allowed to be me.. i miss everything i wud nt miss when i was younger.. i miss my pri sch daes when all i do is luff luff luff luff... bt wad abt nw.. i felt empty.. like a bottle which is oni 1/4 filled... n i cud nt fnd any liq to enter.. my life is like so colourless .. even e color blind wud noe tt its colourless... i dont noe hw to put down n let go of my past.. though i badly wanna forget but i cant all i do is to reprimand myself... for beign ignorant.. suddenly i tot of all e advise n scldings i gt when i was a kid.. by my parents of cos.. n its like so true.. they noe.. they knew tt i'd walk thru tis path.. n dey tired to stop me but i was too stubbon.. i was too rebellious to even take in or hear wad dey sae.. though i still hate dem at times bt.. i realised tt they were rite.. but the way they sae n taught me was wrg.. so who am i to blame.. me or dem? i dono perhaps both? Regrets.. is often a thing we experience.. yet we cant do anything abt it.. n some regrets wud oways be there.. even carried to our graves..in e few previous post i mentioned tt i love life rite nw .. i still love my life nw .. jus tt i am afraid of my future.. i felt daunted even b4 i know was exactly my path wud be.. i felt so sick of e darkness tt i had experience n i am not ready to walk thru tt path again.. n its something no one can ever prepare me for...i felt like a coward.. haha.. perhaps i realie am one.. but most of it is probably caused by not oni fear.. but exhaustion..i felt restrained.. i dono y i sae tt bt ya.. tt is wad i feel..loss for wrds to express myself i guess i shud end here..

" There's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when u know its ur heart u cant trust
There's a reason why pple don stay where they are
Baby sometimes love jus ain't enough.."