Sch's 1st dae.. n 2nd dae..

todae is my 2nd dae at sch... sigh don talk abt 2nd dae tok 1st dae 1st... ok lo go to class alot of pple ler v cold cos outside rain + e rm v cold.. den take e text bk n sat at e back so far frm e board cant c wtf was written sian... my tr ok lo ... but look v cheena.. haha.. was surprised tt her eng was fluent... anyway i braced myself up n tried to concentrate but i realie v tired cos 8 am sleep den 12+wake ler... but i managed to listen wad she saying.. e sch v like ymca last yr i dere lyt... den ok lo but my clasds v weird n big i don like sia.. n alot of china pple.. not i wan discriminate dem but i jus don like dem norh.. den my tr release us 1/2 an hr earlier so i went to bugis meet my bf as i so early release n i don wan to wait for him at my sch cos i jus wanna leave e place ASAP i dono y leh i think i tis person v weird its not i wad lor jus tt i v hate sch no matter is wad as long as is sch i will hate to go lor.. i think cos i am more of a hands on person ie.. i can do well for practical but not for theory.. n i keep gt e mindset wrk is better cos got money some more i reallie miss my wrk place sia sob sob... den after tt me n dear go eat at bugis dono wad thai restaurant.. i don realie like but as i realie dono wad to eat n i don wan eat mos burger again cos recently keep eat so me n him go dere lo... den after tt go sasa tt STUPID salesger cheat me sia.. sae e new tigi curl rock thingy is leave in conditioner v good only gt 12 pieces if i don buy later on will sold out within 3 daes den i go believe n buy.. $23 den i nv read jus buy den all e while i think v funny leh cos i rem curl rock range e leave in is not lyt de is round de but i nv think too much only when i go back to dear hse den i use n i noe is styling product n i so angry cos i got tell e sales ger i don wan styling de i wan conditioner type de cos my hair dry ma.. den she still sae is leave in conditioner some more i realie sae alot of times sia i v angry nw saying all tis grrr.. den after tt me n dear go walk ard... nv buy anything ba.. ya n we got take love getti got one pic v cute my dear head bent vert opp dono hw he do v toopid.. c when i not lazy to scan den will upload e pic.. i cant realie rem wad else we do..oh ya my manager called me n wanted me to wrk tis wed sigh i v soft spoken.. i agreed tho i noe i sure v tired i nv wrk nw oso tired sia... after take pic me n dear go bugis e basement buy alot of small small food n eat.. n we go cold storage buy grocery for his hse n my toiletries cos my hse de finishing ler.. den go back his hse den chatted wif mee li den we both realised we regret take up duploma..n we sae if only we go take up make up class sigh.. den we sae we both like cosmetic.. shud open shop together..haha... if only nw we can den i wun be so stress... i realie don like schling.. sobz... she at least gt fren wif her i don haf so sian go sch feel like an idiot...
i've been thinking quite alot... i think nw i resent sch so much cos it totally changed my life ard.. b4 sch start i got all e freedom i wan n can go wherever i wan at wadever the time is but nw.. i totally gt no life ler.. i v sad.. i cant pei my dear like last time everydae at his hse... i nw keep missing him n i don like e feeling.. n nw i got sch i cant wrk i no money i hw to survive wif jus my allowance? i realie hate sch i can feel myself sinking into depression.. gradually.. i am losing my smile.. nw i don even dare to slp cos i noe time pass v fast when i asleep... n when my eyes open morning ler need to go sch ler i realie don wan me to become lyt.. nwadaes i keep crying over alot of issues... n when i think of dem its all link to sch lo.. if i no sch i can wrk i no need wry abt money if i no sch i don need to wry abt my time cos i will haf alto of time as i only wrk a few daes.. if i no sch i can live wif dear if i no sch i no need c e sun n live e life in e day cos i only like night life... if i no sch i wun be so moody if i no sch i can sleep in peace if i no sch i wun be so tired cos nw i everydae sleep like 4 hrs e max only cos i wan cut dw on sleeping time as i realie dread sch... if i no sch i no need waste so much money on transport if i no sch i can go out any time i wan not like nw stuck in tis timing n timetable so dead... every dae sleep wake up go sch come home lyt nia.. hais wad can i do nw!!.... sigh so far 2 daes i ald feel like ages... i am still clinging on... hw to tahan 1 yr.. when i think abt it i feel so sick n sad.. i realie don wan tis kinda life tt i hate.. i wan my old life back.. e past 7 to 8 mths had been wonderful i wanna go back.. i keep on whining n i think all my life tis is e only thing i whine abt i don whine abt other thigns lo i promise myself nw tt i will nv go n take up n thing again i wun go to sch again tis is n will be my last yr as a student i will nv put up wif tis kinda shit again.. if nw can refund i sure refund but i noe its impossible..

I AM SO FRKING TIRED !