thots..

haf u ever felt empty tho u r occupied.. even when my life is in e full swing mode.. i still feel empty.. funnie rite.. alot of things made me think of e past todae.. hw my life used to be so fun den nw like so lifeless.. i kinda miss those happening daes.. i miss my v-long-nv-contact-but-still-frens friends..like todae wake up den me n dear go harbour front n eat pasta... den walk ard den he go wrk den i feel even emptier haha.. den i head hm.. on e train some kids who are behaving like dere father bought e train KP all e way frm harbour front to hg.. i cant beleive it.. n all e passengers stare at them but dey liek no kick lyt.. even worse dey aloghted at e same stop as me /me faint . . . after tt went hm.. ctv use com try to keep my rm but no mood thru half way.. jsu lyt i spend liek ard 6 to 7 hr ler..wad a waste of time.. n i miss him.. sigh.. suddenly feel like taking cab to his hse nw.. but i n oe i cant la tml gt sch.. but i'd be going dw tml after sch which is 12..i'm gettign worried.. tis is liek e 2nd week of sch so far still quite slack i neo nx term wun be so slack ler cos nx term gt 3 sub nw oni gt 2.. next term hw to fin dtime to pei him neh .. hai dono la.. even if u ask me nw i'd still sae i regret taking up dip... tho i no longer resent it as much but .. i still don like it.. nw i thinking hw to go dw n take cheque.. think i'd go on mon cos e bitch nt wrking.. todae ***** sms me n tell me wad she heard frm e bitch.. wah! i realie fucking hot at tt moment but after awhile i cool dw n i tell myself .. e more she wanna provoke me it will jus end up reflecting badly cos now i did nth wrg if i were to tok thigns out i wun lose cos i am aware tt my concious is clear jus tt i don c e need to waste my time over tis kinda bitch.. aiya n oso once i take e cheque i wun ever needa c her again so i hack la.. she wan sae wad let her sae lo.. i told ***** tt let her sae cos my true frens will noe its nt e truth.. n those who chose to believe e bitch jus proved to me tt dey r nt worthy of our friendship.. human can be so so poisonous.. esp bitches like e fucker.. i'm like practically cursing thruout my blog.. shall try to stop tt.. gonna go n continue tidying my rm.. miss him

I'm sooo broke sobx

sigh ever since ytd my mood v bad.. reopen FS to find back friends to get their num.. todae dear off so we went to town n walk walk .. in e end i spend $250 ! sian no money ler realie broke left like 2 bucks only.. sigh! bought 3 half cardigans n a top frm Zara.. den buy Anna Sui Secret Wish perfume n after tt go tangs to buy Stila highlighter... heng anna sui nv change e gift for over a $100 purchase cos if i not i sure splurge on many anna sui items de.. i tot tt after a shopping trip i will be happier but no lor i stil v sad over my lost hp i realie curse tt fucker lo.. HAIS i realie dono hw lah.. den all e more i shud nt waste money lyt ma.. but i tot after splurging i will be happier tt y i luan luan buy lo.. nw regret.. shud haf save e $ to buy a new hp instead.. but den i oso don haf any hp i liek n i think buy back e same 6260 like v toopid lyt.. e only one i kinda like is N90 frm nokia so maybe i will get tt but haven launch n e sales girl tell me even if launch starting oso over 1k.. si bei sian nah.. hais.. nw i realie v down lo i no mood for everything jus nw at fareast even brk dw cos of certain things.. todae is realie a bad dae la.. tis 2 daes i realie waste alot of money.. like ytd go blow my hair i oso dono for wad shit den buy tis buy tt liek so bo liao cos safter i lost my hp i try every way to make me happy but realie cant lo not even my fav - shopping.. whenever i think of my hp i realie feel v pissed n sad i feel nlike killing e ass hole lo don let me noe who issit lo.. hais.. i feel like looking for a job again.. but den if i wrk i realie dono hw to cope wif my sch.. if don wrk no money wad a dilemma.. sigh.. I HATE TT FUCKER WHO STOLE MY HP! SOBBBBBBBBBBBBB

I LOST MY HP!! SOBX

todae after i meet my inspector i took a cab which resulted me to lost my hp on e cab min after i get dw i call e cab company n my own hp was switched off n i knew tt is it wun get back ler... My precious 6260 HAIS sadded i relaie v sad nw frm 4 oclock keep find n cry same time even go back to bugis where i blow my hair to find oso cant... actulaie i heart pain e pic n message nw no more ler i dono hw.. inside gt dear send me those sms n all e pic including e ones i took todae while i was getting my hair blown.. den e hair become v nice.. nw i regret if i noe i don spend e $40 bucks go blow hair cos wun last some more i need money to buy hp nw esp when i jus resigned frm tt toopid job! some more inside e MMC gt all my webbie de things cos i noe i todae coming dear hse to stay so i save in e mmc n bring here nw lost ler i realie dono hw i am so devasted n sad n angry WHICH FUCKER TOOK MY HP? i even sms e person sae u take e hp can jus return me sim n mmc.. sigh... all my frens who r readiong jus to let u noe as i lost my hp i no longer has any num pls email ur num n those pple whom u think i will wan e num (those i noe de la) to my address : s-h-e-r-l-y-n@hotmail.com thank u so much! n nw i cant continue do my header cos is in e mmc n ytd i ald finishign ler if i noe is tay up for few more min n get it done! sigh y y yy yy y y my hp lost wad did i do to let such a thing happen to me y is god doing tis to me ... nw my inspector cant get me oso i v wry... sigh i wan e case faster get it done lo nw lyt hw when he cant even contact me...
n toking abt my wrk its relaie FUCKED UP she is such a backstabbing bitch... wad i heard frm XXXXXX n XXXXX is enuff ler.. if its one or 2 years ago de me i think i ald slap her ler but cos grw up ler muz learn hw to ctrl.. i shall let god deal wif her one dae she will get it.. 100x more i hope.. i shant sae much here all those ard me ald noe so no point.. all i can sae is.. if tis is a trial i dont think i failed cos.. i noe tt i did my best n i haf no regrets.. but for her.. in her heart she will noe wad she did.. n one dae she will get something lyt in return.. or worse :) n may tt dae come soon fucking nb bitch hope u cross road kenna long.. u tis pcb hope u kenna disfigured n abused by ur husband forever HA!
i noe i sound v mean but if u all noe wad she did i guess wad i said in e above is no kick lo in e wrking wrld is lyt so complicated pple in front nice nice need a favour frm u nice nice dne behind all e real color come out.. backstab riote v fun hor heng all my frens come n tell me n of cos heng i got my bf wif me.. as for u .. tis pathetic loser.. one dae u will die with no one by urside cos u r simply to evil n poison.. FUCK OFF BITCH u will get it some dae.. n god will see it done..

so much anger in me rite nw.. hasnt been a good week.. but amist all tis negative emotions.. i found peace... cos i noe it doesnt matter if e whole wrld lets me down..as i got him n tt is enuff :) tis going-to-be 6 mths has been great.. hopefully it will go on like tt..

my "blown" hair

REVAMP IN PROCESS

as u can c e blog is undone cos i revamping it... well its my habbit as i venture into another chapter of my life to change its skin as to me it symbolises a new beginign .. fucked up craps nsince last nite till todae.. BITCH.. i will tok abt it when my revamp is completed.. well by tonight tt is =P left my header n some pics n i'll be done!

nth will get me down.. asshole

Sch's 1st dae.. n 2nd dae..

todae is my 2nd dae at sch... sigh don talk abt 2nd dae tok 1st dae 1st... ok lo go to class alot of pple ler v cold cos outside rain + e rm v cold.. den take e text bk n sat at e back so far frm e board cant c wtf was written sian... my tr ok lo ... but look v cheena.. haha.. was surprised tt her eng was fluent... anyway i braced myself up n tried to concentrate but i realie v tired cos 8 am sleep den 12+wake ler... but i managed to listen wad she saying.. e sch v like ymca last yr i dere lyt... den ok lo but my clasds v weird n big i don like sia.. n alot of china pple.. not i wan discriminate dem but i jus don like dem norh.. den my tr release us 1/2 an hr earlier so i went to bugis meet my bf as i so early release n i don wan to wait for him at my sch cos i jus wanna leave e place ASAP i dono y leh i think i tis person v weird its not i wad lor jus tt i v hate sch no matter is wad as long as is sch i will hate to go lor.. i think cos i am more of a hands on person ie.. i can do well for practical but not for theory.. n i keep gt e mindset wrk is better cos got money some more i reallie miss my wrk place sia sob sob... den after tt me n dear go eat at bugis dono wad thai restaurant.. i don realie like but as i realie dono wad to eat n i don wan eat mos burger again cos recently keep eat so me n him go dere lo... den after tt go sasa tt STUPID salesger cheat me sia.. sae e new tigi curl rock thingy is leave in conditioner v good only gt 12 pieces if i don buy later on will sold out within 3 daes den i go believe n buy.. $23 den i nv read jus buy den all e while i think v funny leh cos i rem curl rock range e leave in is not lyt de is round de but i nv think too much only when i go back to dear hse den i use n i noe is styling product n i so angry cos i got tell e sales ger i don wan styling de i wan conditioner type de cos my hair dry ma.. den she still sae is leave in conditioner some more i realie sae alot of times sia i v angry nw saying all tis grrr.. den after tt me n dear go walk ard... nv buy anything ba.. ya n we got take love getti got one pic v cute my dear head bent vert opp dono hw he do v toopid.. c when i not lazy to scan den will upload e pic.. i cant realie rem wad else we do..oh ya my manager called me n wanted me to wrk tis wed sigh i v soft spoken.. i agreed tho i noe i sure v tired i nv wrk nw oso tired sia... after take pic me n dear go bugis e basement buy alot of small small food n eat.. n we go cold storage buy grocery for his hse n my toiletries cos my hse de finishing ler.. den go back his hse den chatted wif mee li den we both realised we regret take up duploma..n we sae if only we go take up make up class sigh.. den we sae we both like cosmetic.. shud open shop together..haha... if only nw we can den i wun be so stress... i realie don like schling.. sobz... she at least gt fren wif her i don haf so sian go sch feel like an idiot...
i've been thinking quite alot... i think nw i resent sch so much cos it totally changed my life ard.. b4 sch start i got all e freedom i wan n can go wherever i wan at wadever the time is but nw.. i totally gt no life ler.. i v sad.. i cant pei my dear like last time everydae at his hse... i nw keep missing him n i don like e feeling.. n nw i got sch i cant wrk i no money i hw to survive wif jus my allowance? i realie hate sch i can feel myself sinking into depression.. gradually.. i am losing my smile.. nw i don even dare to slp cos i noe time pass v fast when i asleep... n when my eyes open morning ler need to go sch ler i realie don wan me to become lyt.. nwadaes i keep crying over alot of issues... n when i think of dem its all link to sch lo.. if i no sch i can wrk i no need wry abt money if i no sch i don need to wry abt my time cos i will haf alto of time as i only wrk a few daes.. if i no sch i can live wif dear if i no sch i no need c e sun n live e life in e day cos i only like night life... if i no sch i wun be so moody if i no sch i can sleep in peace if i no sch i wun be so tired cos nw i everydae sleep like 4 hrs e max only cos i wan cut dw on sleeping time as i realie dread sch... if i no sch i no need waste so much money on transport if i no sch i can go out any time i wan not like nw stuck in tis timing n timetable so dead... every dae sleep wake up go sch come home lyt nia.. hais wad can i do nw!!.... sigh so far 2 daes i ald feel like ages... i am still clinging on... hw to tahan 1 yr.. when i think abt it i feel so sick n sad.. i realie don wan tis kinda life tt i hate.. i wan my old life back.. e past 7 to 8 mths had been wonderful i wanna go back.. i keep on whining n i think all my life tis is e only thing i whine abt i don whine abt other thigns lo i promise myself nw tt i will nv go n take up n thing again i wun go to sch again tis is n will be my last yr as a student i will nv put up wif tis kinda shit again.. if nw can refund i sure refund but i noe its impossible..

I AM SO FRKING TIRED !

Revamp. . .

A revamp will be on the way.. cos i'll be having lotsa free time.. n i dono if its good or bad.. i miss my darling
-mUaCk!eS-
jus lesser den 24 hr n i am in dis state... -.- dono hw! imiss my bf i miss him alot i don wan to go sch i don wan things to change i v scare i noe i sound like a kid nw but i realie don wan y y y y y y did i chose to take dip GRRRR i don wan tis kinda life so wad if only one year one year oso v long ok i don wan i wan things to remain e same !! my ah dear coming home soon.. sigh.. thx god tml can c him after sch he will coem fetch me muacks dear i love u

Jus for fun

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend whatever you have.

You think good luck will definitely be yours, someday.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match.

You Are 45% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

What's Your Personality Type?

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

You Are A Fir Tree

You love anything beautiful, and you have extraordinary taste. And while it's hard for you to trust, you care deeply for those close to you. You are a social butterfly, and you have many friends. You handle stress well - and you are a master at relaxing after a hard day. Overall, you are modest, talented, unselfish, and very reliable.

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others. Your caring personality really shines through. Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out. But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

You Are A Realistic Romantic

You are more romantic than 70% of the population. It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.You're still taken in by love poems and sunsetsYou just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

sch is starting tml...

was v interesting.. my last week of freedom was great... sat (9th) wrking was great... tho its hip hop n i hate but e pple made my dae.. tues dear's off went out n had fun.. bought alot of rubbish.. =( waste money again... QUITTING SMKING IS SO HARD BUT I DID IT... 6 days n still counting!! wed was good too ... wrk at my fav station.. n me n bjorn went totally crazy hahahahahahhahahaahhahahahahah anyway finally found tt song tt me n bjorn love so much n other couple of good tracks.. i was totally estactic when it was being played... anyway thurs... did i go out? erm... i think so.. ya i meet up wif my sis n we went shopping.. din buy anything ba after tt went drinking n many awful things happen don sae ler la jus sae i totally sian to e max.. :\ den fri went to ONYX no pple sia but did enjoyed myself la sat me n dear went to eat at marina bay tho quite late when we get dere n no food ler but we still v happy lo..den sun which is jus nw celebrated my younger sis bdae jus nw i reckon she like e present cos she seem to realie genuinely like it haha.. sian tml going sch ler.. SOBZZZZZZ 2 pm i so sian nw.. so sian till i dono wad to do is a phobia cos since young i hate sch lo tho nw goign to tis sch is my decision but i still resist it at tis v moment guess too many issues r making me lyt rite nw..
anyway i darkened my hair haha finally ! n i needa buy my hair stuff soon cos run out ler.. anyway i miss my bf damn alot.... sigh tis is one thing abt sch.. no more constant glueing to him sobz.. i miss him !! sigh nw terrorising myself wif awful tots.. i tot of my 1st dae in ymca last year.. it wasnt as bad as i tot too so hopefully tis wud be good but when i c e timetable i saw sat needa go back i v sian sia.. sigh tho most of e lessons only 3 hrs but who noes wad it will be once dey move to the uni campus u cant deny the fact tt i am lazy! becos tt is e truth.. i miss my bf.. - ya again.. tis few daes we spend every moment we cud hold on to as much as possible anyway e sch i going nt at bugis sian sia at aljunied walow i don even noe hw to go dere n dere so out of e place for me WALOW at 1st i chose mdis cos its at queenstown den near my bf hse so not so bad nw stuck dere wad to do sigh.. for at least a mth++ i noe i ythinkign too much but i noe tt no body noe hw much i am dreading sch rite nw i cant even be bothered to pack my bag etc... :( gotta charge my hp tonite so tt tml when sian can hear mp3.. anyway e only good news nw is MY BF TML OFF wahahhaahahahaha yeahhh but e bad thing is.. frm tues till nx week i wun be seeing him sigh.. i'm missing him so much!! :~

My birthday :D

Your Birthdate: July 5

With a birthday on the 5th of the month you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine. You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility

Back frm thailand a week le but don feel incline to tok abt it cos so much haf happpen n i noe i will rem e 4 daes always so no need blog ba but i gt enjoy myself oso gt part of it i unhappy but overall i still v happy tt dear bring me dere for a holiday b4 my sch start :D... bought lotsa bags n stuff for v cheap but dere keep sell same things de so walk long oso sian all e shop sell e design oso same de sia.. but realie v cheap la.. but gt a few unhappy incidents esp wif cabbies..n i hate e food dere.. n dere sell green tea everywhere sia u wan other drinks oso hard..gt regret nv buy a few things but don sae ler la.. todae my birthday... so happy.. tho haven celebrate cos tml den meet dear but i feel happy leh haha cos i noe he plan alot of thigns to surprise me ler tho i dono wad thing la but i v excited till don feel like sleeping.. anyway b4 i go meet dear later on in e day will get to celebrate wif my family.. so glad tt i can haf 2 celebrations ... anyway my younger sister bought me a realie nice precious moments foto frame n my elder sis bought me a bag charm (aka key chain wif lotsa ling long) tt has a butterfly!!!! jus wad i want.. so happy!! anyway.. nw finally 18 ler.. dono good or bad but i v happy my sch haven start so can realie enjoy.. i wrking till tis sat only son i can haf one week of freedom b4 sch starts.. realie v tired of wrking ler but i noe at e same time i will miss working dere cos wrk for 7 mths lyt ler.. sigh.. but i noe its time for me to leave la alot of reasons.. for my bdae wish i hope tt my family will be happy n stop having quarrel can live happily n peacefully n oso hope me n dear will be happy together forever till e end of time.. me n him together going 5 mths ler... he trt me v good n i neo he loves me alot so i cant ask for anything else except tt we will be happy.. i felt so blessed :) hopefully my 18th year on earth will be one of e happiest year