F* up

feeling fucking cynical n everything negative nw.. i hate it when my life is being ctrl in dis way... i cant do wadever i wanna do nw... todae is wed i cant even go club cos tml got sch n if i go i'l get damn drunk n i wun be able to go to sch.. i miss my o life again.. i wanna go back... right to the start.. i resent all tis shit.. argh!! feeling so pek cek yet unable to do anything to improve or change the situation..

i'ved realised.. i shant trust anyone any more except for him..